This month marks the sixth anniversary of my husband’s diagnosis of cancer. I remember where I was when he called and told me the words I never wanted to hear. Fear swept through me and I began pleading with the Lord for his healing. Family and friends prayed over him and for him. Surgery was scheduled and by the grace of God, our Almighty Physician & Healer, the cancer was removed and he has continued to remain cancer free.
This was not the first difficult moment we faced together. Years before this we traveled through the journey of infertility. There were appointments, medications, frustrations, a loss, heartache – you name it. When I finally reached my breaking point and wanted to give up, I stopped everything and released it to God. A month later I found out I was expecting and we were blessed.
Did you notice that I used the word “released?” For God to move, I had to get out of the way because I was holding on tightly to the dilemmas at hand. I had to learn to release my worries to Him and do something that I don’t do well…and wait. Along the way, we grew both spiritually and in our marriage. We learned to completely rely on God because these were situations we couldn’t just fix. It was going to take Him moving.
Life has not always taken the easy route for us. We’ve battled and faced our share of other difficulties. Each one has been a growing experience. I look back on our journey and even though there have been struggles and there will be struggles in the future, I’m grateful. Without the trials, we couldn’t fully appreciate the victories.
As we celebrate each year and the milestones they bring, I’m forever grateful for answered prayers. God has been there through all of it – he never left our side on the roads we traveled. He walked with us. He is always faithful.
Hebrews 13:5 God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”
Deuteronomy 31:6 “he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
“I have won
and I have lost
I got it right sometimes
But sometimes I did not
Life’s been a journey
I’ve seen joy, I’ve seen regret
Oh and You have been my God
Through all of it…”