One morning about five years ago, I was awakened by God giving me a name and the overwhelming urge to go and check on this person. I hadn’t even fully opened my eyes yet so I flipped and flopped arguing with God about this, wondering if I was crazy.
Eventually, I figured out that I would remain in an unsettled mindset until I did it, so reluctantly I got up and told my husband, “This is crazy but I have to go to the restaurant right now.”
It was around 6:30 a.m. on the Saturday of Memorial Day weekend, and I fully expected this to be an “I misunderstood God” moment. Instead of trusting God, I just knew that the gentleman wouldn’t be at the restaurant and I was drug out of bed early for no reason. I mean, why would he be there so early, if at all, that day?
Lo and behold as I drove toward the restaurant whom did I see walking across the parking lot other than the man whose name God had given me. I pulled my car up to him, called him by name, and said: “I have no idea why I’m here but I felt God telling me to come and check on you this morning.”
The look on his face was one of disbelief and shock. He replied, “please keep my family in your prayers.” I promised I would and left. That was it; there was no more conversation, and I felt that was all I was supposed to do and say. In hindsight, I should’ve prayed with him right then but I didn’t.
Fast forward to about a year later. I’m driving home, see a woman’s face in my mind, and hear God tell me to go to a local store and find this particular woman. He directed me to tell her, “God loves you.” Recalling the instance from the year before, I headed to the store, wondering if she’d be there or if I’d even cross paths with her.
You guessed it; she was there and she was near the entrance of the store. I walked up to her and told her the very words I had been given. She stopped what she was doing, and too looked as if in disbelief or like I was the biggest weirdo on the planet. Again, I had nothing more to do or say so awkwardly, I smiled at her, told her to have a good day, and went about my business.
As Christians we’re supposed to be in tune with God’s voice, knowing when he’s telling us “do this and do that” or urging us to carry out His business.
Have you ever wondered what might happen when God says “do,” and you don’t?
Whether He’s urging you to pray, speak up in church, spend time with Him, or do what some would consider ‘off-the-wall’ in reaching out to others, He has a plan and has something in store.
I’ve had those moments where selfishly, I ignored the “do” and didn’t complete the request God had asked of me. I have regrets. After not allowing Him to use me as a vessel in which He used for something good, I’ve watched as He used the person next to me to do and say the very things He had given me.
Instead of being bold and trusting Him, I let intimidation step in, hinder me and therefore missed out on being part of a blessing.
God has allowed me to hear His voice and has used me in situations for reasons I can’t understand. I have no idea why God sent me to do those things all those years ago or since, but when I trusted Him, the people were in place. Why I don’t trust Him all the time in those moments, I can only attribute to fear, doubt, stubbornness, and the like – which we know comes from the enemy.
I could speculate on the need in both of the above situations over and over and on why he used me in them, but more often than not, I think maybe both of those people just needed confirmation from God for whatever reason and to know He loved them. And, maybe I did as well. Maybe I needed to learn something in that moment.
I write all of these posts as encouragement to others but I mainly write them as reminders to myself.
So, to myself (and you), I say: if you hear God telling you “do”, just do it and be His vessel. Be bold and don’t let intimidation step in and keep you from being an instrument in His plan. What others receive from it we may never know, but what we receive are moments we see His divine hand at work.
2 Timothy 2:21 Therefore, if anyone cleanses himself from these things, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified, useful to the Master, prepared for every good work.
John 1: 5-8 If you want to know what God wants you to do, ask him, and he will gladly tell you, for he is always ready to give a bountiful supply of wisdom to all who ask him; he will not resent it. 6 But when you ask him, be sure that you really expect him to tell you, for a doubtful mind will be as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind; 7-8 and every decision you then make will be uncertain, as you turn first this way and then that. If you don’t ask with faith, don’t expect the Lord to give you any solid answer.